Dzuwa Lakutsogolo: Mabwenzi apanjinga | Mizati

Dzuwa Lodzikweza: Mabwenzi apanjinga | Mizati

Ndine "wolankhula" komanso gulugufe, chifukwa miyezi ingapo yapitayi yoletsa kucheza ndimakhala ndikupanga ma psyche anga. Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi zochitika zochulukirapo zochulukirapo pakadali pano, ngakhale ndidalitsidwa kale.

Pali masiku omwe ndimadzipeza ndekha mozama za kudzidalira kwanga. Ndine wabwino bwanji? Kodi ndine mtundu wa anthu omwe akungotenga malo pano padziko lapansi ndikupumitsa mpweya womwe anthu osiyanasiyana angaugwiritse ntchito bwino?

Masabata angapo m'mbuyomu, pomwe ndidali ndi nkhawa, ndidakwera njinga yanga yatsopano yamagetsi paulendo wapamawa m'misewu yapakatikati. Chomaliza chomaliza m'malingaliro mwanga chinali chakuti ndinali nditatsala pang'ono kuti ndidziwe mtundu wa "mphindi za Mulungu" zamwano.

Ndikamagulisa nyumba zam'mbuyomu, nthawi zina ndinkapukusa manja kwa eni ake ndikulankhula moni mwamphamvu kuti, "Mwadzuka bwanji." Anthu ambiri amakhala otanganidwa kugwira ntchito zam'munda.

Ndikuyenda, ndidafika kwa mayi wina yemwe amayenda kantini kake kakang'ono. Nditamufunira m'mawa wabwino, ndinangoseka, "Ndikuwona kuti canine yako ikupita kuti uyende bwino."

Anamwetulira pamene ndikupitiliza kukwera mseu.

Ndinali nditatsala pang'ono kumaliza ndi ma mile anga asanu ndi limodzi nditafika kuno mwa msungwana yemweyo. Anali atakhala pamphepete mwa mphambano, limodzi ndi chingwe chake chodumphira pachidutswa chake.

Pokhala wamanyazi, wosakhala anthu-omwe ndimakhala, ndidangoyimilira ndikumayankhula. Popeza adakhala pansi, ndidamufunsa ngati akumva bwino. Ananditsimikizira kuti anali.

Ndinatsitsa njinga yanga ndikupitiriza kuyendera limodzi. Canine wake, "Star," adapitilizabe kuchezera (a.ok.a. kukwapula) ndi ine.

Chimodzi mwazomwe zidabweretsa china, ndipo ndidazindikira mwachangu kuti anali wamasiye kumene. Mwamuna wake wazaka 35 kuphatikiza kuphatikiza adamwalira mu Januware.

Popeza ndidakhala ngati wamasiye zaka 23 zapitazo kukwatiranso ku 2006, ndidamvetsetsa, za zomwe amapita.

Mwa zina, ndidagawana kuti ayenera kukhala mawonekedwe kwa iyemwini. Ngati akuwoneka ngati akulira tsiku lonse, ayenera kuchita. (Adanenanso kuti anali nawo.) Ndidawonjezeranso kuti ayenera kuchita ndi iye nthawi ndi nthawi, ndipo samadzimva kukhala ndiudindo. Adavomereza mwachangu kuti nthawi zina amayima pafupi ndi "maimidwe" a ayisikilimu.

Misozi ikungotuluka, ndidagawana nawo nthabwala yamasiye yomwe idamwetulira.

Ndinazindikira kuti amakhala pamseu kuchokera kwa ine ndipo amayesa kuwona njinga yake masiku angapo. Ndinavomereza kuti ndimabera pogwiritsa ntchito njinga yamagetsi, komabe tinapangana kuti tizigwiritsa ntchito limodzi, ndikusandulika "anzanu apanjinga."

Madzulo a tsiku lomwelo, ndidafika kunyumba kwake ndikumupatsa kabuku kabuku ka masamba 70 ka akazi amasiye kamutu kakuti, “Sisterhood of Sorrow.”

Mtima wanga wopwetekedwa mtima unatsika tsiku lomwelo. Ine sindine winawake, komabe Mulungu mosayembekezereka anandigwiritsa ntchito kupeputsa mtolo wa chisoni ndikundiyika pamalo oyenera munthawi yoyenera.

Chifukwa cha chisomo cha Mulungu, ndine woyenera. Chifukwa cha chikondi chake chowala kudzera mwa ine, sindimangotenga malo.