Icala leLanga eliPhezulu: Abahlobo beebhayisikile | Iikholamu

Ukujongwa kwelanga phezulu: Abahlobo beebhayisekile | Iikholamu

Ndingumntu "othethayo" kunye nebhabhathane ekuhlaleni, ke kwezi nyanga zidlulileyo zonxibelelwano lwasentlalweni oluthintelweyo bezisenzeka engqondweni yam. Kudala ndineendlela ezininzi zokuba nosizi ngoku, nangona ndibusisiwe ngomlinganiso odlulileyo.

Kukho iintsuku endizifumana ndizimisele ngazo. Ndilunge ngantoni? Ngaba ndiluhlobo lwabantu oluthatha indawo apha emhlabeni kunye nokungenisa umoya onokuthi usebenze kubantu abahlukeneyo?

Iiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, ngelixa ndandibambe i-funk yeemvakalelo, ndakhwela ibhayisekile yam entsha yombane kuhambo lwasekuseni kwizitrato ezinendawo. Into yokugqibela kwiingcinga zam kukuba bendikade ndiza kuba sethubeni lokufumana uhleko "lwamaxesha oThixo".

Njengokuba ndandikhwelisa abantu kumakhaya angaphambili, maxa wambi ndandidla ngokuwangawangisa umniniso kubani ndize ndibhale amazwi athi, “Molo.” Uninzi lwabantu luxakekile lusenza umsebenzi wegadi.

Njengoko ndandihamba ngenyawo, ndafika kulo lonke inenekazi elalihamba nge-canine yalo encinci. Emva kokumnqwenelela intsasa egqwesileyo, ndongeza ngokuqhula, "Ndiyabona ukuba i-canine yakho ihamba nawe."

Uye wancuma xa ndiqhubeka ndinyuka ngendlela.

Bendihlala ndigqibile ukugqitywa ngamava am eemayile ezintandathu ndakufika apha kule ntombazana inye kwakhona. Wayehleli kwindawo enqamleza iziphambuka, kunye ne-canine yakhe eqhotsiweyo kwibala lakhe.

Ukuba ngumntu oneentloni, ongenguye umntu-ondim, ndaye ndamisa ikhefu ndaza ndaqala ukuthetha naye. Ukusukela oko wayehleli phantsi, ndacela ukuba uziva ulungile. Uye wandiqinisekisa ukuba unguye.

Ndothule ibhayisekile yam ndaqhubeka ndindwendwela kunye naye. I-canine yakhe, "Inkwenkwezi," yongeza ngokundwendwela (a.ok.a.yapping) kunye nam.

Inye into ekhokelele kwinto eyahlukileyo, kwaye ndakhawuleza ndaqonda ukuba wayesandula ukuba ngumhlolokazi. Umyeni wakhe oneminyaka engama-35 nangaphezulu usweleke ngoJanuwari.

Kuba ndandihlala njengomhlolokazi iminyaka engama-23 eyadlulayo nditshata ngo-2006, ndaqonda, ngokubonakalayo, malunga nento awayehamba ngayo.

Phakathi kwemiba eyahlukeneyo, ndabelana naye ukuba makabe yifom kuye. Ukuba ujongeka ekhala imini yonke, kufanelekile ukuba ayenze. (Uye wathi unayo.) Ndongeze ukuba kufuneka ajongane naye rhoqo, kwaye angaze azive enoxanduva. Uye wavuma ngokukhawuleza ukuba ngamanye amaxesha uyema kufutshane ne-ice cream "stand".

Ngelixa wayelila iinyembezi, ndabelana ngehlaya lomhlolokazi kunye naye elazisa uncumo ebusweni bakhe.

Ndiye ndaqonda ukuba uhlala ezantsi kwendlela kum kwaye uzama ukuba namava ebhayisekile rhoqo ngeentsuku ezimbalwa. Ndavuma ukuba ndiyakopela ngokusebenzisa ibhayisekile yombane, nangona kunjalo senza izicwangciso zokuzenza ngokudibeneyo, sajika saba "ngabahlobo beebhayisekile."

Kamva ngala mvakwemini, ndagoduka ndaza ndamnika ikopi yencwadana yamaphepha angama-70 yabahlolokazi enomxholo othi, “Usisi Wosizi.”

Intliziyo yam ecinezelekileyo yenhliziyo yonyusa loo mini. Andiyena mntu, nangona kunjalo uThixo wandisebenzisa ngokungalindelekanga ukuba ndiphungule umthwalo wolunye uhlanga ngokundibeka kwindawo efanelekileyo ngexesha elifanelekileyo.

Ngenxa yobabalo lukaThixo, ndifanelekile. Ngenxa yothando lwaKhe lukhanya ngendlela yam, andithathi ndawo nje.